LIFESTYLE | Things September Has Taught Me

Hello my lovelies. Happy Tuesday, I honestly I cannot believe it is October, where is this year going? 

I recently read a blog post from another blogger I absolutely love and that is Bryony Baker. She did a post titled 'things I've learnt about myself recently', click here to check it out, and it has inspired me to do a very similar post but for the month of September. 

So, it's no secret. Blogtember was a bit of a fail and you know what I'm okay with that. Everything I had planned literally didn't go to plan and that is fine. That is literally life doing it's best which brings me to the first thing that this month has taught me. 

When I look back on the start of September I didn't think I was pushing myself too hard. But four weeks down the line I've realised I am not super woman. I said to myself yes I'm going to blog every day for this month because there is physically nothing to get in my way, I decided to throw BORN TO BE within the mix of posts I had planned as I figured I'd have all the time in the world to blog with not having any major commitments when I started the month. I figured I could pretty much blog every single day and work on other posts throughout every day as well as apply to a bunch of jobs and just try and sort my life out and figure out how to be an adult. 

Four weeks later I've realised that I can do anything but not everything - at least not all at the same time. I've felt a lot of pressure this month to sort my whole life out and get into a system and I think that's quite normal after you finish university. I know a lot of my friends have also felt the same way as me. There is so much pressure on young people to have a career picked by the time you're sixteen and then after you've done all of your required studies and you instantly think you're going to walk straight into the career you wanna be in or a job similar to your studies and the reality is, life is not that easy. I've never had a 9 to 5 job as of yet simply because I haven't been successful in the companies application processes. Which is very disheartening but you just have to keep pushing on and trying and as long as you know you're trying your best that's what matters. Trying to do everything for my blog and apply for every single job going in my town and going to interviews and receiving phone calls from employers whilst still socialising and catching up with friends and taking care of my own needs it has proven difficult. I've learned that I can do anything whenever I feel like but I've gotta stop putting pressure on myself to do it all at once. 

Speaking of jobs one thing I've learnt whilst applying for a whole range is at this very point in time I am not 100% on what I want to do with my degree. Within drama I learnt so many different things and after three years I have delved into so many different subject areas that I love, so now I'm in a position of not knowing what path to go down when it comes to starting out in an area of my degree. The ultimate dream and goal is to be able to do everything I love all in one. So obviously carry on blogging and creating amazing content, to be a paid performer whether that is on stage or on screen or both (both would be awesome), to have my own theatre company one day, potentially be a lecturer at some point in the future, I also want to carry on studying the idea of mindfulness and how that can relate to actors and performance etc, and there's just hundreds of things I want to do. So with all those different ideas it's hard to commit to just one. The main advice I've had from all my lecturers is to not worry about your career right now and to just go out and experience a range of different activities. 

So when it comes to jobs, at the moment all I want is to find a job where I can just earn money and work. I don't really want to do a job at the moment where I have to think of having a career in that job. Which is also something else I've discovered recently, just because you get a job that has no relation to what you want to do or your chosen career path at the moment doesn't mean you're going to do that one job forever and that's it. Life is all about experiences, challenges, and learning curves and I imagine I'm going to have a lot of those throughout my twenties as I discover where I want to go and what I want to do etc. Just because I'm going to get a job that has no relation to my career and me as a person really, doesn't mean I have to limit myself to that one possibility when I've got so many other goals I want to achieve, and I know there will be so many other opportunities that come my way as I learn and I grow. 

Something else that's been highlighted to me this month is that everything costs money. Now obviously I already knew this but before coming home I always had the excitement of looking forward to my student loan rolling in this time of the year for the last three years (I miss you student loan, come back to me) and obviously now I don't have that it means I am very limited on the funds. Kindly my mum and dad have given me some money over the summer to go out and do things with friends and whilst I've been looking for jobs etc. But obviously I can't ask them for money forever because not only is that not fair on them. But it's also quite degrading when you're in your twenties and you have to ask your parents for money for the things you want to go out and do. 

So yeah, money literally means everything. And it's obviously gonna mean even more when I have my own place one day and have to pay rent and bills etc. But at the moment if I don't have any I literally can't go out and live my life. 

And the final thing I've learnt this month is that adulting is hard. Now I'm aware that I've not reached the peak of adulthood yet where I have my own place to live, and I've gotta pay loads of bills, manage my money, manage children, etc etc etc. But making the slight incline from student life to young adulthood life is actually a shock to the system. Over the past three years I've been so used to having my student loan and living with my best friends and going out and spending money on Costa's every day because we easily just could. I lived for all of those days and now the hard reality has hit that all my friends are across the whole of the UK, if I want money I've gotta earn it now by doing a job I don't really want to do in the long run, and I suppose I've essentially just got to take every day as it comes now. I know I don't want to live in my home town forever and I know I don't just want to work in a dead-end job forever. But because I don't know where I 100% want to go or what I 100% want to do I've just got to focus on what I need to do right now rather than what I want to be doing in a few years time. 

I hope you all enjoyed this post and let me know what September has taught all of you down below. 

Thank you all so much for reading.

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Love,

Katie